Retirement Urge

Veteran's day, P got the day off. Lucky him, or lucky government employees. But he still went to his office to catch up on his work. That meant that we didn't have to get up as early as 5:10am like we usually do on Mondays. That felt so good. I got up when I was awake, not disturbed by an alarm clock. I felt quite sad, thinking about it. That is the life I want. I am not lazy, I still get up at 6am, but it felt so different, without being roused out of bed by a cold alarm clock. I don't dislike my job, but I think I want freedom more. Freedom to be in control of my life and my hours. I don't want to labor 30 years on the job, wasting my life away in front of a computer in exchange for a stable paycheck.

I try really hard to horn my skills on stock market so that I secretly wish one day, I would be able to earn enough to support our family with the income I make of it. It is doable, I have seen other people do it. But of course, I need more time to perfect it and see a noticeable result. It may take years, but I am working on it.

I don't ask too much, I just want more time to do something I really enjoy, reading, less stress, stock market, spend time working on the house, no need to rush to grocery stores on weekends while everybody is shopping. Simply, I want more time to myself and my family.

Maybe I depress myself more working on something that is out of reach for a lot of people. But I know at least I am trying.